Mar 062014

For a few days I have been absolutely shocked by what was happening in Ukraine and couldn’t do much apart from looking at my news feed. Now, when I am starting to come back to the world of living, I feel some need to say what I think about the reasons for the present conflict. I don’t know too much as I’ve been in the UK all the time, but I am both Russian and Ukrainian, I’ve grown up in Moscow with one of the very common Ukrainian family names and visited Ukraine many times.

  • Russian Government or shortly Putin is to blame for steering people’s fears and for invading Crimea. What saddens me the most is the dishonesty of it all. Soldiers hiding their nationality (but in obvious Russian uniforms!)  Blatant denial and lies in the media. Also the fact that there was a treaty in the 90s over the Ukrainian borders which is now Russia is trying to break. And blaming America all the way for intervening in others business. The fact is that all powerful counties do this and it is time for people of the word to stand up to this disgusting pretence.
  • Western media. When the riots in Kiev started they were so happy on British channels to shout “Ukrainians are against Russia now!” How do you think this would make Russians feel?  I’ve met an artist who said to me something like “How great, Ukrainians are rebelling against your lot now” – almost instead of hello. It felt horrible. People, especially being in minority and living abroad, often perceive the view of they country as the way the locals look at them. Initially BBC and Channel 4 made me totally believe Russian propaganda: that Ukraine is full of neo-Nazis hating everything Russian (and therefore me too).
  • Idiots who proposed to get rid of the second state language. Western Ukrainian language is from the West of the country, it never been spoken by natives of many other regions, including the Crimea (which was given to Ukraine in 50s without any consent of its inhabitants – mind you, it didn’t matter so much as this was just a part of one country). The threat of abolishing their language caused great anger among Russian speaking Ukrainians and you can’t really blame them.
  • Violence during protests. Protesting is fine and in many cases great but why some protesters expect again and again the police to throw chocolates and flowers in return for bricks and Molotov cocktails? Violence leads to even worse violence, situation escalates. I am appalled by the scenes of rioters beating up the police or pushing each other through angry striking crowd, or making people kneel. This is medieval barbarism.
  • Nationalists on all sides. They are always in the wrong. It is limited, primitive view of the word in which one nation is more important than another. This has no future. The only good thing that this conflict may produce is that any government will stay away from Far Right as much as possible, scared by Russia’s over the top reaction to some nazis who joined the riots. There are plenty of nationalists in Russia too: I know because I lived under constant pressure to join them in the 90s. Rather than getting outraged at the idea that “our lot is being beaten up” (as nationalist do) humans should get outraged when anyone on this planet is beaten up.
  • Ambiguity of the international law on regional independence. Why some allowed referendums and some are not? Personally I think splitting countries only increases bureaucracy and nationalistic feelings. But this really should be for locals to decide, isn’t it?
  • Clergy on all sides blessing the guns, calling people martyrs and promising heavens. This divide people by religion and leads to more violence. Remarkable exchange of words happened between Ukrainian and Moscow branches of Russian Orthodox church. Ukrainian side asked Russian one to influence their government in preventing bloodshed. What Moscow church PR person Chaplin (not funny one) said was almost word to word from Hitler speech on annexing Austria. Nation, separated by borders, under threat have right to unite. Ukrainians, do not resist and you won’t be harmed… What this has to do with religion? Or is the church truly inseparable from the government in Russia now? Dark ages are back.

With all the screaming and emotions it is difficult to know what is really going on. I recommend following several different media channels, but also ordinary people in the midst of it. I put more trust to the opinions of wise and educated people.

It is all so sad because normally there is not much barriers between Russians and Ukrainians. There is often a feeling that we should not even belong to different countries. After all, Kiev was the first capital of Russia! But then all humans are brothers too, who left their motherland in Africa some time ago and we all separated to tribes who often don’t want to listen to each other…

What are the lessons? I think the only way to better future is away from nationalism, violence, mass media brainwashing and state-level dishonesty.

The brightest moments of the last few days were when Russia Today presenters expressed their honest views among suffocating propaganda. We do watch this channel from time to time, normally it is full of weird conspiracy theorists but presently it feels like the most aggressive brainwashing I’ve ever seen. Somebody from Ukraine recently said that their propaganda channels are full of lies too…

I do hope the situation de-escalate before it is too late.

Feb 072014

Numerous individuals act to bring peace, justice, prosperity and equality to the world. They sign petitions, donate, blog, march, form organisations. It is all right and noble.

Governments often say the same words, appear to care about Human rights, peace and environment. They have to: otherwise individual people won’t vote for them. Yet so often it seems that the true motivation for ALMOST ALL GOVERNMENTS is mere strength of their country. They are plotting aiming at regime change to get more allies, they are trying to broaden their country market for export or to grab cheaper resources, they sell weapons right and left – and so on.

This is wrong and I think all thinking people of the world have to come together and expose the truth to make this world a better place.liveforhumanity

 February 7, 2014  Posted by at 09:29 human matters, politics, relationship, values Tagged with: , , ,  No Responses »
Dec 152008

On Sunday my daughter took part in this annual event.
She did very well although because of bad organization and confusion we can’t really say how well. Our Mayor and local MP Lembit Öpik were engaging in boring personal show off. But we still had good fun and are very proud of our little girl. Photos, videos and more story (hopefully) to follow.

 December 15, 2008  Posted by at 10:44 Christmas, kids, Newtown, politics, Wales, winter Tagged with: , ,  No Responses »
Dec 112008

If somebody deliberately tries to offend you, this person puts a burden on his or her conscience and has to live with it for the rest of the life or do something with it (eventually). Not YOU! You walk free. Just try to look at it as a page from a novel you read. And no hard feelings. Just another lesson.

It is obvious the body can’t function well without physical exercise or hard work. Same is the soul. It needs its lessons and exercises too, to grow stronger and better…

Violence will undermine any good course. Look at the rebellious Greeks. Maybe they have a bad government. It doesn’t matter now. People starting violence are always wrong, in my opinion. If you like democracy, you vote for somebody else. Or peacefully propose another solution… If you throw stones at police cars, don’t expect them throw chocolate bars back at you. And this (like protests in Thailand) will damage your country’s economy in bad times thous making everybody’s life even worse. So, it’s very strange to hear about people violently protesting against job cuts or low salaries in such times…

Speaking of so called democracy, its looks like the poor people of tiny car-free island of Sark don’t have any free choice to live their traditional way anymore:
Billionaire newspaper magnates got their way. Heaven is still the Kingdom, I hope…

Dec 042008

I don’t think free speech exists. We hear from time to time, that it didn’t existed in the Soviet Union, or it doesn’t exist in modern China. Well it doesn’t exist anywhere. Its just a pretense. Lets be honest. If you forbid saying anything offending – that is it. Any strong opinion on important matter can offend the opposite side. So governments, organizations, etc forbid some allegedly “bad” groups of people or individuals to speak on their own behalf. And what does that do? It turns them into martyrs for indecisive people. It shows to those who didn’t make heir opinion yet – the government is afraid that if “baddies” speak, they will take over, that they may actually have Truth on their side. Its so easy to wave your sword at somebody who is not allowed to do so in our “civilized” society. For me its strange, how on Earth you can convince somebody what’s right and what’s wrong if you don’t let other side publicly defend itself?

Of course no viable government will allow open propaganda against itself on the prime time TV. Its understandable. Of course children should be protected from unappropriated content. But why not have a web site (or a radio station) easily accessible for all adults where absolutely anything could be said, any opinion discussed, and where any crazy lunatic could explain his or her point of view (and being praised or remotely”beaten” for that). And then, we WOULD have freedom of speech.

 December 4, 2008  Posted by at 20:30 Britain, legal issues, moral issues, politics, radio, religion, Russia, tv, USA Tagged with: , , ,  No Responses »
Nov 202008

I’ve found a couple of photos from few years ago. There were some trouble in Russia and I felt very upset, particularly because the media here in UK, instead of being just a little bit compassionate, was using this for anti-Russian political propaganda. And then a kind elderly lady next door just brought me the carnation flowers. She died soon after that. (Just mapping my life)

 November 20, 2008  Posted by at 16:49 about me, Britain, photography, politics, Russia, still life Tagged with: , , , ,  No Responses »
Nov 162008

I’ve read an interesting article by Dmitry Orlov

It compares the collapse of the USSR (which I sort of experienced) with present economic situation. Frankly, I’ve already started to gradually increase amount of tinned and dry food in my storage, buying seeds of edible plants and reducing spending even more.

During the Soviet Union Collapse I was young and naive, lived with my mother and spent most time just dreaming. So I mostly missed it and I don’t feel sorry for that. Now I did criticize the consumer culture living in the USA and UK for the last eight years but I feel a bit upset I didn’t participated. We never went on a cheap holiday to a popular destination, visiting kids’ grandparents instead. We never had flown by a cheap airline (they don’t have flights between the destinations we need!). We never had a car. We were buying mostly second hand clothes. We never had thrown away something we didn’t need anymore but still useful. Instead we were trying to sell it in our Ebay shop – to earn few pounds. I’ve been to hairdressers maybe 3 or 4 times during this period because that would cost too much and personally I don’t like being interrogated about my life during my haircut. We never borrowed any money apart from mortgage which was unfortunately unavoidable. We had to switch heating on in our house only when it was really needed – to save money. We haven’t been buying perennial flowers in big boxes from a plant nursery just to throw them away next season as I’ve seen many people (and councils) do. I’ve been trying make my own compost as I couldn’t afford to buy some (once it did went really wrong :-). We didn’t went much to restaurants. I had nobody to chat for hours on the telephone, mobile or not. We haven’t been replacing old things with new unless we really had to. I’ve missed all that and it looks like its gone for good now…

That’s very good, somebody might say. Yes, but it wasn’t entirely my choice of lifestyle! Well I think all this happened because I didn’t went out to work but stayed at home with my kids and my paintings. That was my choice… although I’d still love to have a Landrover Defender or a motocaravan to visit beautiful and exotic places (Gypsy blood), to have nice organic clothes for the family and to start my own large orchard. Hope dies the last.

Another thing I wanted to say – thank you very much to everybody who sent me kind comments during last few days (sorry for my English by the way). Now that I know that somebody is actually reading what I write – I’m really scarred…

PS. There is a long list of labels (topics, subjects) on the left, so if you want to read say about oil pastels only you can do this. I also have a nasty habit of rewriting old posts or adding something to them – sorry

Nov 032008

I’m so bored watching the American Election on the News all the time. We are not in America here! None of the candidates looks kind or interesting to me, neither radically different from each other. But Americans sound angry and divided at the moment… Few years ago I was sort of sad when Gore lost (can’t remember which party he belonged 🙂 but I’ve seen him in real life when we lived in the USA. Normally all politicians are for me something like computer generated models – deep inside I don’t really believe they exist.

 November 3, 2008  Posted by at 10:28 Britain, politics, tv, USA Tagged with:  No Responses »
Nov 012008

Just a few words about recent events. They say young people like watch bad unkind behavior on TV, so it has to be shown… Well, what if young people liked to watch people being killed on TV? BBC would be creating programmes for that? My opinion is that TV & radio should never suggest that amoral, unkind behavior is OK, especially on tax payers’ sponsored channels! Otherwise its obvious that the government don’t want the citizens to be kind and to obey its own law.

Another thing, few weeks ago me and kids were watching something like Blue Peter program about animals during our breakfast. We like wild nature. I think the programme was called

“Wild About Animals: Hippos… he programme follows Hugo, a young male
hippo who lives in Zambia’s Luangwa … Celebrating the giggles presenters and
guests have had on Blue Peter. …”

And all of the sudden they started to show a hippo going to toilet… with zoom… and they were showing it again and again… Kids felt outraged & disgusted (young generation!). Who needs this kind of program??? And at breakfast time! And it was not only one occasion on this program! I’m from abroad, we (luckily) didn’t had much children’s TV but my British husband is constantly shocked at the fact that bad behaviour (including rude disgusting jokes) is actively promoted on British childrens’ TV today. One wonders why they do it?

 November 1, 2008  Posted by at 07:18 age issues, Britain, kids, moral issues, politics, radio, tv Tagged with: , ,  No Responses »
Oct 262008

I am normally not interested in politics much. But now, living in the UK and being predominantly Russian, I’m horrified by the amount of hatred directed by news towards Russia and everything Russian. Politicians and mass media won’t tell the truth (they never do anywhere) but this time they unfair propaganda really making me very depressing. I hope there still are some free thinking people. It feels now if I tell others where I was born – they will throw stones at me. I’m really almost ashamed of having a British passport.

Well, this is the opposite side:
It will be biest too, but at least then you can balance points of view for yourself.

 October 26, 2008  Posted by at 10:32 Britain, politics, Russia Tagged with: ,  1 Response »