Had a real “moment of darkness” recently when got involved with a group set for the benefit of all the community. I had a growing feeling that only people who were benefiting were a few ones in charge of the group. I could only speak for myself so I told them all (in an email) that I as a member of a group have no benefits from contributing despite of the need, which was of course, selfish and far too personal and emotional, yet, I think, had to be done by somebody, or the things would go on indefinitely. Feel like hiding or leaving the town now – or joining with other partly like-minded members for a complete take over and make over of the whole enterprise. But then, we could end up with the same situation of receiving the benefits and telling the rest of community “let your volunteering be your reward”.